怎么了？？

我是怎么了？？
肚子饿了不找东西吃。。
现在胃很痛。。还在打blog..
我怎么了？？
不懂自己的心情。。
眼睛一直掉眼泪。。
很想找她们，但她们不得空。。
我没有肩膀靠了。。
我怎么了？？
我不知道自己在做着什么。。

只知道自己很像废人。。
我怎么了？？
为什么那么低落？？

为什么自己不会想。。
学会尊重自己，别人才会尊重你。。。

饿到胃痛是我的家常便饭。。
不睡觉，然后头痛，偏头痛~

自己甘愿堕落。。
叫自甘堕落。。

明明是个很开心的人。。
但背后却有那么多的问题。。

我很想放弃自己。。
但是我不能。。
还有很多东西必须做。。

有时在想如果我死了，
是不是一切都会变好。。
是不是死了，就不用烦了？

我的头脑很累。。。。。。。
虽然失忆不是一间好事，但如果可以的话。。
我要失去我所有的记忆。。

我不要现在的一切。。
我想重新开始。。

会不会有一天，我真的去自杀？？

........not good.......

This year..

What happen to my family n me?
Why got so many problems have occurred? Why?
Haiz..luckily…everything is fine now..
I hope all this kind of things won’t happen in my family anymore..

Memory lost is a kind of sad incident..
I think we must be healthy n keep our memory nicely…
We must write our diary so that we will remember the moment that we want to remember..
If one day, u really lost your memory..at least u still got ur diary to refer back that what had happening in ur life..

Yesterday I go out with my friends..
We went to Sunway Pyramid…we went there for ice skating..
Erm..is fun when u r skating…really fun…although the shoes r heavy to wear~

Then…suddenly.. I get a call…
Wow~ then I also do not know why I cry crazily there…

Many people use different ‘eyes sight’ to look at me..
I also do not know why they want look at me..==’’’…
I just know ytd I really fish…why I cry a??i really can’t control my emotion…
Suddenly too sad then straight away cry…

I think many people know what was happening..
Cz…..i talk in english with the aunty who take care my brothers~
at that moment, I really no mood to skate anymore..

Then, ling call me and chat with me..then I just back to normal..
Then, my mum also settles this thing very fast n efficient…
I know my mum loves all of us…I love u, mummy~
Thanks ling too~ hehe…I love u too…^^
thanks fang..^^..thanks yong..
Erm..thanks all my friends who accompany me at that time la~
Hehe…I love u all~

everything will be fine..everything do have the own solution to solve~
so…don’t worry…(this sentences use to bluff people)
if any unhappy things have happen..we are human being..
We have our own feeling, for sure we will be sad…we will be emo..
Everything have the own solution..this is the truth..what it needs..is time~
I pray to God…sincerely…

We need world peace…
We need to live healthily…

That’s all~

fun~

suddenly want to go out..then just go out..
haha..
3 of us...
yu, hwi n me...3 scorpio...
lol...
too funny...

fun...
watch movie..play...having dinner...
it is fun~




dinner...haha...




hahhaha..^^

很可悲~很可笑~很该死~的自己~

很好笑吧~
很可悲吧~
叫我把所有关于你的东西都删除掉。。
你知道吗？在那一瞬间。。我的心很痛。。
我不懂为什么自己做不到。。。
很伤心。。。

很痛。。
答应会做到但是又做不到了。。
当自己不要想你时。。
你的信息来了。。
没有胡思乱想。。但就是很不舍得你。。
我的泪水又来了。。

我不懂以前的自己让你流泪多少次了。。
但现在的我。。
肯定像以前的你。。。
我的心。。
不知道怎么了。。。

你知道吗。。
世界末日要到了。。
我很开心。。
因为可以离开了。。

但又很伤心。。
我很矛盾吧。。
真的很恨自己。。。

很想放弃自己。。。
但因为种种的理由。。
我必须活下去！！

哭。。我很讨厌哭的人。。
但却控制不到自己的情绪。。
这样伤害对方又何必呢？？
不如就这样放手吧。。

但如何才能放得下？？
我说了这句话。。。多少次了？？
有哪一次是成功的？？

我是笨小孩吗？？我太天真了吗？？
失去了就是失去了。。
不要再妄想任何东西。。不要再好奇你对我的感觉。。
很蠢吧。。

这种蠢事竟然发生在我的身上。。
你真的那么有魅力吗？？
我不懂。。
只知道。。。
原来我很难去控制我的感觉。。。

爱一个人需要理由的吗？？
我的看法〉不用。。
因为对我来说一旦爱上了就是爱上了。。需要理由去解释吗？？
这是一种感觉。。出自于自己内心的感觉。。

讲到很像很厉害浆~
其实自己是个爱情蠢蛋。。
什么都不懂。。却以为自己很懂。。

每次写blog都那么伤心。。
真的很蠢下。。

第一次用那么多的‘蠢’字来骂自己。。
真的有够蠢。。。


haiz~

forget u...

ur birthday...
ur present...
my birthday...
my present.....

ur memories...
my memories....
ur life....
my life.....
u n me...

i want to keep all this thing inside my heart....
then slowly i will forget u...
now i talk like that..seem like very easy...
but actually very hard for me...

i have make the decision...
i will forget u..
i wont do those thing anymore...
give u that present..
cz i want to feel...
how hard is it??what is the feeling when i finished?
what is the feeling when u get it??

all those feeling....
i want to feel it...
ur expression...
ur feeling...
i want to know...

now only i knew...
i dunno better than i know the feeling...
it is hurt...
but this is the last time u can hurt me so deep..

i am so sorry because last time i am too bad for u..
i treat u badly...
i am a bad gf...
sorry because i hurt u badly...

but now...i can feel what u felt last time...
what can i say now...
is.....
sorry, i love u....

i will let u go....
u r just one of my passengers in my life...
i will forget u..

i do not want to hurt myself anymore....
those feeling really too hurt...

u made me cry...
ur birthday....
last words i said to u...
i love u n goodbye...

i cry...
because long time i din said this word...
my heart is pain...
dunno y...
just feel sad....

u have ur life..
i have my life too....
2 different people..have different life to go...
goodbye.....

i am too sad...
my tears.....
i just cant control it...

it is hard to forget u...
but i will try my best to do it...

xiao bai nian...bye bye la...

hope i can do it...

my exam is on monday 12/april/2010...
but now i still not yet start my revision..
what's wrong with me??
i dunno..may be i am planning for the day..

today is the day...10/4/2010...saturday...
go out with him...
become so silence..
how come a?
i also dunno what had happen...
i just know...
my heart broken...
feel sad...
u hurt me badly...

but what to do..
i bear....
i very patient...
because i keep telling myself..
this is the last time i do all those thing for u..

i hope u will like that things..
what i can say is...
i love u but goodbye..

i wont be 主动 anymore...
wont...
cz the feeling....not good..
too bad...

i will let u go...
i give up...
goodbye my beloved.....

what i want to do now...
i want my career....
this world is full of cruelty..
without any cert...u wont find a job.
so be smart...
work hard....
get more cert as u can...
gambateh n good luck for everything...

i must let u go..
i know it is difficult to do it..
but i will do my best....

gambateh!!!

assignment...presentation...

april fool....
fun??
not fun at all....
yesterday i just finished my presentation...
today...got exam...haiyo..
then....
today..know the marks...
aiya...
sad...cz 38/50...
most of the classmates get 40 ++...
but that is the marks that i deserved to get..
i din put more effort on it..
so i cant blame anyone...just can blame myself...
just hope to do well in my final exam...
gambateh...

yesterday...i do a stupid thing..
i washed my ''du chi''...
then bleeding...
haiz...
very pain la...
sad...T.T....>.<...

may God bless me..
i want to be healthy..^^