just use to it...

everything just seem like use to it already...

i tell myself that do not regret for what i have been done...
and i will accept the consequences...
i know that i can do it well...
i will....

someone said me...
why so stupid...
i also do not know why...
may be just used to it...

get hurt???yes...
pain???yes...
why still continue to do that???just use to it???
no....i just...........too much........

everyone has their own limitation...
i am not pretty like someone do...
i am not tall as someone is...
i am not thin and slim as other people...
i am abnormal...
this is me...


if u do not like me to be ur friends...
if u think i will let u be shameful...
it is fine to me....
u can choose to stay away from me...
or u can straight away tell me...
i wont angry...

this is me..
i wont force anyone to do anything that he or she reluctant to do!!!
wont!!!!!

i am alive.........................................
wow~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

the people who have a great spirit is coming back...........
that is M3~~
hehehhehehe...

a crazy girl with a great spirit!!^^
WOW...
LIFE IS WONDERFUL~

alone...but can learn something~

today i decide go sing k with them...
first time i went to time square with them by bus...
fun..yaya...okok..

today i went out with my college friends..
megan, lilian, angeline, min earn, ping jie n daniel..
fun..nice...to play with them...
we sing k from 2 something to 5 pm like that..

then ping jie, daniel n me went home...
wow..raining heavily~~

3 of us buy the ticket for monorail...
but mine is different from them..
and i go home alone...

wa...alone again...
after reach K.L central...
i need to walk n walk n walk...

then buy the ticket for ktm...
haiz..
haiz...

after buy the ticket...
i still keep walking..

then...
..........
finally..
i reach kepong....

then...
what happen to me??

wow...still raining...
still rain heavily...
who am i waiting for??

i sit at there....
and count the trains that pass by...
count n count n count...
there have 7 trains...

i sit at there for almost 1++ hours..
i am waiting for him.....
why??
cz he promise me to fetch me...
ling not free cz tuition...
my mum not free...

finally...
i din wait for him...
i take taxi to back home...
i am scare cz raining heavily...n i have to take taxi go home..

i am rushing...
when i back home..
it was 7.30pm...
i quickly take my bath...and go out with stephanie...

i am late again...
i need to attend for the class...
so i have to rush...

what i had promise to people..
i will do it...although i am late..

wow~
the class...ends late...
when i back home...
almost 12 am...

what a busy day~
today lectures class...
make me feel HOT~~~
wa...the guy sit beside me..funny...=='''
i cant do those questions..
need to try harder...

Gambateh!!
I can do it...
Jesus is with me...
I LOVE U,JESUS...

wa~~

my holidays end like that~~
during this holidays..
i am wasting my time everyday..
haha~of cause i got hang out with my buddies~~
i hang out with ling,fang,guan~~
haha..
fun??of cz fun~~
i have went to many places~~
OMG,i am wasting my time and become lazy...
i become a fat fat girl~~
haha~~
holidays end d...
my new life begin~~
i need to fight for my life..
i know what should i do~~
hahahahahah...
FIGHTING!!!

♥♥♥love him so much~~

hahahaahhaha...
do u guys know who is him???
ta dang~~
is him~~


he is leng zai..very yeng~~
so man~~
IP man...nice...
donnie yen~~
leng zai~~

today went to many places~~
walk walk la..
eat la..
play la~~
11 pm smthg i just back home~~



wa...dunno why..
suddenly so ♥ donnie yen~~
Wow~~

怎么了？？

我是怎么了？？
肚子饿了不找东西吃。。
现在胃很痛。。还在打blog..
我怎么了？？
不懂自己的心情。。
眼睛一直掉眼泪。。
很想找她们，但她们不得空。。
我没有肩膀靠了。。
我怎么了？？
我不知道自己在做着什么。。

只知道自己很像废人。。
我怎么了？？
为什么那么低落？？

为什么自己不会想。。
学会尊重自己，别人才会尊重你。。。

饿到胃痛是我的家常便饭。。
不睡觉，然后头痛，偏头痛~

自己甘愿堕落。。
叫自甘堕落。。

明明是个很开心的人。。
但背后却有那么多的问题。。

我很想放弃自己。。
但是我不能。。
还有很多东西必须做。。

有时在想如果我死了，
是不是一切都会变好。。
是不是死了，就不用烦了？

我的头脑很累。。。。。。。
虽然失忆不是一间好事，但如果可以的话。。
我要失去我所有的记忆。。

我不要现在的一切。。
我想重新开始。。

会不会有一天，我真的去自杀？？

........not good.......

This year..

What happen to my family n me?
Why got so many problems have occurred? Why?
Haiz..luckily…everything is fine now..
I hope all this kind of things won’t happen in my family anymore..

Memory lost is a kind of sad incident..
I think we must be healthy n keep our memory nicely…
We must write our diary so that we will remember the moment that we want to remember..
If one day, u really lost your memory..at least u still got ur diary to refer back that what had happening in ur life..

Yesterday I go out with my friends..
We went to Sunway Pyramid…we went there for ice skating..
Erm..is fun when u r skating…really fun…although the shoes r heavy to wear~

Then…suddenly.. I get a call…
Wow~ then I also do not know why I cry crazily there…

Many people use different ‘eyes sight’ to look at me..
I also do not know why they want look at me..==’’’…
I just know ytd I really fish…why I cry a??i really can’t control my emotion…
Suddenly too sad then straight away cry…

I think many people know what was happening..
Cz…..i talk in english with the aunty who take care my brothers~
at that moment, I really no mood to skate anymore..

Then, ling call me and chat with me..then I just back to normal..
Then, my mum also settles this thing very fast n efficient…
I know my mum loves all of us…I love u, mummy~
Thanks ling too~ hehe…I love u too…^^
thanks fang..^^..thanks yong..
Erm..thanks all my friends who accompany me at that time la~
Hehe…I love u all~

everything will be fine..everything do have the own solution to solve~
so…don’t worry…(this sentences use to bluff people)
if any unhappy things have happen..we are human being..
We have our own feeling, for sure we will be sad…we will be emo..
Everything have the own solution..this is the truth..what it needs..is time~
I pray to God…sincerely…

We need world peace…
We need to live healthily…

That’s all~