21/3/2010

today..i damn scared...
do u guys know what happen to me n lay hoon??
OMG...
morning around 6am something..
we walk to bus station...on the way, i keep praying..
because i am scared and there is too dark...
then unexpected thing happen...
the stupid people..
come to attack us...he want rob lay hoon's bag..
i do not what to do..i forgot to shout...
i very scared...i stand on the middle of the road..
but those cars did not stop..
just horn me and go away..
i saw that stupid people using his bear hands to hold around lay hoon's neck..
i damn scared..
i dunno how to shout..i stunned at there...
i blank...
just standing at the road..tahan the cars..
but no one stop the cars..
so sad...
then someone horn the stupid people..
but did not come out to help..
at the moment, lay hoon kick him and shout for help...
then at that time only i realized i should shout help help help!!!

then...
luckily nothing has gone...
but lay hoon get injure...
we really got blood got sweat to participating this Astro star quest...
haiz....
thank God...
only small injure..
but for me is big injure already...

then...
we went to federal hotel to take part the audition..
wa..on the way go there...
i really no mood to sing anymore..
i really get shocked...for the incident...
wait from 8 am something...
12 noon like that only go in to the audition room...
wa...i am so nervous...
got 2 different audition room..
one judge is lee wei song..
another is alex san..

lee wei song is very nice..
he gives me a lot if advices..
i choose 身骑白马 to sing....
then he say i am too nervous..lol
then..he wants me sing again...
then..
i am oso nervous..
haiyo...
too bad...
then he say i not enough skills..
i should give myself one year..
and consult some vocal teacher to strengthen my skills..
then my voice not bad wor...
call me to take part next year....
hahah...
lay hoon thought i can in..
cz i a bit take too long time inside the room...
so funny...
i cant make it..
nvm...
next year...i sure go again...
hahahha...lol...

night....
i go out with chai ling..
we walk under the rain...
we flashback...all the memories...
then..
she treat me eat yogurt..
kakakakkakaz...XD
thank you!!

my heart...

luckily..that is just a small operation..
thank God...
tuesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hope everything will be fine!!!
gambateh!!!!

i want to be a good daughter.......
gambateh.......

today i made a person hate n angry me...
my heart broken..........
i do not know what to do anymore..
just can say sorry...
i am too rush...n worry...
u do not know what is my feeling for sure...

u knw why i feel i am useless??
i just want to go to hospital..
but i do not have transport..
for sure i must n will ask people to help me...

i got the car license but do not have car...
i am useless rite??
haiz...
i know my attitude not good..
i apologize...

at that time..i really too rush...
sorry because i also do not know what is ur situation..
so i cant be selfish and just think about my situation..
but..
that's a serious n urgent case for me..
do u feel my feeling??
u wont...

this is the second time..
i damn scared...n feel useless..
because i cant do anything..

if that sick person is me..
i will be ok..
i hope the people who got problem is me..
not my family...
i damn worry about them..

i think if u face this situation..then u know...

i am so sorry...for disturbing u..
i am so sorry...
for my bad attitude...
i am so sorry..
i wont ask for help anymore...

so sorry...sorry...really sorry...


after this incident...
an unexpected thing had happened...
stephanie came to find me...
she brings along dinner for me..
Oh my God...
it is too touch for me...
she cooks for me n mum, too touch....
thank God because i meet u...

this few days..
i am too stress..
i had too many things to handle n settle...
may God bless me...
i do not want anyone to leave me...

i do not want that kind of things happened...
if want a people leave this world..
God...
please bring away my soul and life to u..
please let my family live happily..

thank God...

long time din cry already...
yesterday....n today....
tears....keep coming out from eyes...

too sudden..

i am damn worry......
what was happening??
why all the things come so sudden??
today i get a call...
mum said that she is in the hospital..
God..i wish that everything will be fine..

after that..they came to my house do assignment..
then...i am waiting for my mum...
i thought all will be fine..
but that's not true..

tomorrow..i gonna accompany my mum go to hospital..
i do not know what is gonna happen..
i just pray and hope my mum will be fine..
and no need to do operation...

God please help my mum...
may God bless us...

tonight..i still go to church..
i pray..
i have too many things to worry..
someone...said something to me...
it hurts me..
i cry when i am eating my rice..
but not cry actually..
is my tears come out from my eyes...

i am too worry for my mum situation..
then u said such words to me..
haiz...

i am speechless..i just can say...
sorry for disturbing..
next time if i got anything..
i won't ask u to help..i will find other people to help me..
i am so sorry because disturbing u..

haiz...
hope everything will be fine..
feel badly...
my tears come out again..
so stupid n useless..
haiz...
what can i do??


May God bless my family...

result...anything..

monday..
i got my sem 2 result...
wow??!!
unbelievable...i almost cry out...
cz i pass my account..hahahah...
last sem i suffer than other people cz i took 7 subjects..
ngam ngam pass for the resit account..haha..C+..
i get 2A, 4B, 1C..CGPA..3.3...
got improve compare to sem 1...
i am too happy...
firstly, i need to thank God..^^
hopefully this sem i can get a more better result..

at night, i attend for a class...
then....went home late...

tuesday ,wednesday ...
i forgot what have i done...
i just know got small test..
and i felt scared to face exam..
but sometimes i like exam..
i am weird..

thursday..
OMG...
grammar test..wow...
this is very difficult for me..
find out 10 errors...
haiyo..cham liao lo..
haiz...
hopefully can get a okok marks...
hahahha...


when i update my blog..mean something has happen to me..
sometimes i am lazy to type..
sometimes...
something was happened then only i wrote my blog..

now..i am...
in a hot condition...
i should not angry of anyone...

i should be patient...
those things are just a small stuff..
so i should handle it wisely..

haiz...
hate myself so much..
good in talk only..
always talking craps...

work harder please...
i am talking to myself again...
should i go to consult a doctor??!!!
i got mentally problem!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

recently..

after CNY...a busy n hectic life has started..
recently...all my assignment come together..
then i become lazy to do all this stuff..
i am too busy but still have free time to play fb n chit chat..
i am giving myself many reasons n excuses for not to do my assignment..
now..i really hate myself so much..
ya..no one is perfect..but i want to make myself easier...
i do not like to do last minute work..
so i have to change...
everyone is changing their life..so i have to do so..
i am not following them..but i just need to think about my future..
so gambateh n all the best for me..



6.3.10, sat
dex, nee n i went to tan chong..
we visit the car factory..
OMG, we felt tired..this factory is too huge..
we keep walking..
n see the process for making a car..
wow...
it is COOL...
hahaha..
we may get lots of knowledge on the process for making a car...
haha..then we got interview those workers..
manager la..executive la..supervisor la...
it is fun..


7.3.10,sun
wow...
i follow my mum go to the family day activities..
today is a hot day....
wa....
i become dark again...
OMG...
i go there have fun...i play those games..
n i go participate the karaoke competition..
so malu n xia shui..
coz..i think i sing badly..
haha..
but...i got get the gift..wakakakkakak..XD
i get no 5...total got 12 / 13 people participate the competition..
i so 'cha shui'...
but..at least i have a good try on that..kakakkaz..
wa...
start from 7.30 am until 3 pm...
that's why i am so tired...
haiyo...
then now have to do my assignment some more..
haiyo...so sad...T.T..

gambateh ba..pui san...^^
God bless me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!