突然的崩溃..

今天的我，很没有力量。。
我'肥佬'了很多科。。
没有尽力。。很犯贱。。
人就是那样。。
今天忍不到了。。
逃跑去厕所。。泪流了。。
心很痛。。。呼吸困难。。
回到课室。。突然又来了。。
我崩溃了。。
控制不到自己的泪。。
不想让别人知道自己的弱点。。
只是让鱼见到了。。因为鱼坐在我隔壁。。

我。。不懂为什么。。
真的没有力了。。。
我又开始自己伤害自己了。。
变态狂。。咬自己的手。。用笔插自己的手。。
原来我会痛。。
原来会'黑青'。。
很多的原来。。仿佛回到了以前的我。。
太变态的我。。
还好没有去跳楼。。

我找不到释放自己的方法。。
only self-torture...just can let me know that..
i will feel pain...
我不懂为何。。
变灰了。。

我。。突然不见了。。
只想找个倾诉的对象。。然后大哭。。

可惜。。当时没有一个人帮到我。。
只有在鱼面前。。哭笑不得。。
要哭还是要笑。。
什么也不懂了。。


太累了。。。

wow...life...

last friday..9th of july 2010..
my classmates....head to genting...
but i din follow them because i need to go out with prudence n yong..
haha..
prudence booked me first..
so i reject to go to genting on friday..

feel bit regret...cz i need to sleep alone..
T.T..my mum also went to genting that day..with her friends..

wow...
we have a 'great dinner'...
haha...XD...
after having our dinner..
we head to Desa park city..
cz prudence has not go there before..
haha..

then...
go home lu...
once back home...
scare...
LOL...
switch on the light to sleep...
=="...hehe...

saturday..
went out with fang...
go church...

sunday...
go church...
^^.........

more n more exam n assignment....
come to me..
be strong!!!
face all those reality!!!!!!!!!!
GAMBATEH!!!

繁忙的日子..

最近，真的真的很忙。。
不懂为何忙的日子虽然很累。。
但觉得是值得的。。
很忙的日子又很象有点得空。。
哈哈。。矛盾的我。。

维持了几天。。
我知道自己是可以的。。只是。。
要的是时间。。

加油吧！！佩珊！！

繁忙的功课。。我把它放了一边。。
溜去学校看他们的camping..
好久没有那样了。。

昨天在学校待到3am something..
then,ling fetch me home..
4am something just went to bed..
sleep...
6am ++ woke up...
7am ++...a cup of tea...
8am.going to church...

一句话。。忙和累。。
看他们办活动。。就想回去以前的我们。。
一班朋友忙着办很多的活动。。
每天跑来跑去。。
现在呢？
什么都没参与了。。
真遗憾。。这样就结束了。。

感觉上，上了学院读书。。
很象应该要参加更多的活动。。
可以累积不一样的经验。。

但很相反的。。我没有参加任何活动了。。
怕？？应付不到自己的学业。。

心很想参加和学更多的东西。。
但自己又不会分身术。。哈哈。。
所以学不到那么多东西。。每样都要慢慢来。。
哈哈。。

努力吧。。
向前冲！！！

i am Reborn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today when i woke up..i felt so fresh..
and i knew that somethings good are gonna happened...
the spirit made me felt so different..
because of God..we are different!!!

i love u,Jesus...

today after the class..
i felt that i am full of knowledge..
thanks to my lovely sis,Stephanie..

because of her..i learn n knew n understood lots of things..
i know what am i doing right now and i gonna hit all those target...
with the accompany of God..

i will do the worshiping job with my sincere heart..
i know i am reborn...

May God bless me n my family n my friends....

All the best in everything!!!

Thanks Lord that i am alive!!!

a brand new life....

A brand new life has began...
thanks Lord...
because bring someone to be with me..

i need to be faithful...
i know what is the main aim in my life..
i will do it..
i know Jesus will be with me to handle all those stuff..

i have understand many things that i need to be understand..
i know i am growing up..
my thinking will be mature..

won't be childish anymore..
i have promised my Lord..
i will do all those stuff...
i will make it well..

Jesus is the way, truth and life..
i will choose the way that God had set to me..
i will follow and i know my life will be changed...

with the accompany of Lord..i know my life gonna be wonderful..
the power of praying really works in our life..
so do pray before we want to do something..

thanks Lord for let me know all of them..
thanks Lord for giving me a brand new life..
Amen..

God bless us...world peace..

....

always emo..always sad..
that's me...
next month...will be a challenge month for me..
i hope everything will be fine..
and i dun want let something to affect my mood n life..

i hope i will be fine...
recently...
really too busy for me...

i am so tired...
can i have a break..
long time din go for movie...
n shopping...
haiz...

sad sad sad....
T.T..

i hope the sem break can come faster...
hahahha..
then...
Penang is waiting for me..

hahahha...
Penang...
ahhahah..
go eat eat eat eat n eat......

fun...
hahahha...
hope this time can go la~~
hehehe..^^

life...

facing a busy n full of challenge life...
everyday facing a hectic life...

busy busy busy..
keep saying myself busy..
but i also do not know what i busy for...
hahaaha..
so funny la me..
hahahaha..

i am funny n crazy...
have my new hair style..
look like watermelon...
LOL....
i really a crazy girl..

life still go on....
thank God that i am alive...

assignment n coursework....
r waiting for me....

exam....is coming......

my life.........
full of challenges...
accept the facts...
face it....
and find solution to solve all those problem..

i know i can do it...
i will be strong...
i will be tough...

busy life....not a big deal...
i can handle u...
wakakkakakakak...=D

waiting for a break...
........
hahahahhaha...XD


gambateh.....
all the best to all of us....


after all those challenge..
we will learn something new...
n we will grow up and be mature........


wow........
A BRAND NEW LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!