my heart...

luckily..that is just a small operation..
thank God...
tuesday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hope everything will be fine!!!
gambateh!!!!

i want to be a good daughter.......
gambateh.......

today i made a person hate n angry me...
my heart broken..........
i do not know what to do anymore..
just can say sorry...
i am too rush...n worry...
u do not know what is my feeling for sure...

u knw why i feel i am useless??
i just want to go to hospital..
but i do not have transport..
for sure i must n will ask people to help me...

i got the car license but do not have car...
i am useless rite??
haiz...
i know my attitude not good..
i apologize...

at that time..i really too rush...
sorry because i also do not know what is ur situation..
so i cant be selfish and just think about my situation..
but..
that's a serious n urgent case for me..
do u feel my feeling??
u wont...

this is the second time..
i damn scared...n feel useless..
because i cant do anything..

if that sick person is me..
i will be ok..
i hope the people who got problem is me..
not my family...
i damn worry about them..

i think if u face this situation..then u know...

i am so sorry...for disturbing u..
i am so sorry...
for my bad attitude...
i am so sorry..
i wont ask for help anymore...

so sorry...sorry...really sorry...


after this incident...
an unexpected thing had happened...
stephanie came to find me...
she brings along dinner for me..
Oh my God...
it is too touch for me...
she cooks for me n mum, too touch....
thank God because i meet u...

this few days..
i am too stress..
i had too many things to handle n settle...
may God bless me...
i do not want anyone to leave me...

i do not want that kind of things happened...
if want a people leave this world..
God...
please bring away my soul and life to u..
please let my family live happily..

thank God...

long time din cry already...
yesterday....n today....
tears....keep coming out from eyes...